Monthly Archives: January 2014

Hopes and Dreams


Sweet babies,

Already your little lives have left a positive impact on our world.  So many times when we are out, people– strangers even–can’t seem to get enough of you.  They smile at you when they pass us in the aisles, sometimes they stop and say hello or to compliment you in some way, and most often say things like “Your children are so sweet!” or “This made my day!” Now don’t let your head get too full here, there have been plenty of times when you (ahem, Rachel…sorry but Jake is just too little at this point for this to be geared towards him!) meltdown in a store and embarrass me to no end and I’m sure other people are thinking it would make their day if we would just leave! But I digress….

Other times I can see and feel people looking at us with a slight smile in a way that makes me feel as though they might be remembering similar times when their children were little.   When those kinds of looks happen, it reminds me to take a moment to take it all in.  To look at you, really look at you, in a way that I can almost breathe you in.  One day you will be big and grown and I will not be able to protect you and hold you the way that I can now.  The world can be  a scary place.  But you, my little loves, are a bright spot in it all.  You are hope that there is a future, and that it is very good.


My hope for your future is that it turns out exactly the way you want it to.  If you want to grow up to be a doctor, I will do everything I can to help you meet your goal.  If you want to be a writer, or a teacher, or a chemist, or a veterinarian…whatever you choose to do, I will help you in any way I can.  I will always be here for you.  I mean that with every ounce of my being. The road will not always be easy, and sometimes you’ll decide that what you thought you wanted, isn’t infact what you really wanted.  And that is O.K., too.  Whether your dreams have taken off and you are flying and soaring to new heights, or whether you fall, or are unsure, or unsteady, or even if your dreams have become stagnant and seem so very far away–keep going.  You can do anything your heart desires.


My dream is that you find whatever it is that you are passionate about and go-all-out.  Don’t be afraid to fail–because you will! It’s inevitable, but you will learn and you will grow…so in the end it will be good! I promise! The world is, and will always be, a better place because you are in it. Find what gives you strength, what makes you feel whole and what drives you to love.  Afterall, love is what it’s all about.   Your willingness to love others can be used as a good barometer for your own happiness.   Choose to be happy. Choose to love.  Most importantly–be yourself.  You are a gift.  You are a treasure. You are everything I hoped you would be…and much more.

I love you to the moon and back–forever and always.



4 Month Old Jake



Happy 4 month birthday, Jake! This month you are seeming much more “grown up” in the way you move and take in the world around you.  Your movements seem more purposeful as you grab for toys, put things in your mouth and turn your head to watch people passing by.  You squeal with delight when we tickle you and smile a wide gummy smile when Rachel enters the room.  You are a rolling machine these days, but you seem to only save that feat for when Mommy and Rachel are around.  Every time Daddy comes in to the room you suddenly stop and refuse to roll any more! Already you are proving to be a very unique mixture of someone who is determined yet also relaxed.


You love a good chew toy, and are often found chewing on anything you can get your hands on (your fingers are your all time favorite, though.)  Your eyes are still very blue and everyone is wondering if they will change color or stay the same.  Either way, you are (and will be) perfect in my eyes.  You are a perfect combination of your Daddy’s laid back attitude and my inquisitive nature.  You love to be around people and are quite content to be held or snuggled as long as the person holding you will allow. (Side note-You see how you have your feet pressed together in this picture? I love when you do that.  And you do it quite often. When you are older and I think back to when you are a baby, I like to think that I will picture you like this–chewing on a chew toy, your bright blue eyes looking up at me with your tiny little toes pressed together and your knees practically to your chest.  *sigh* Do me a favor–don’t grow up too fast, little guy!)


You are happy. You are giggly. You are smiley. Simply put, little one,  you are a dream.  And we love you more than you’ll ever know.

Love always,