After story time one evening, I carried you over to your bed and we talked about your day and laughed while I tickled you in such a way that you could barely catch your breath. “I love you so much!” I told you before leaving your room; it’s always the last thing I want you to hear from me before you close your little eyes and drift off to sleep for the night.
“I love you so peanut butter and jelly!” you said in a fit of giggles as I kissed you goodnight and tucked you in to bed. In your silliness and sweetness I couldn’t help but feel a lump catch in my throat because I knew what you meant. I knew that was your way of telling me that you loved me as much as one of your favorite things in this world–peanut butter and jelly! It was your way of saying “I love you to the moon and back!” and your way of saying “I love you so much!” Only it was more meaningful than any of those because you put your feelings in to your own words. I was reminded in that moment that you are growing up so quickly and it seemed like just yesterday that you were six months old and learning how to crawl and now here you are joking with me and telling me that you love me, more than just an “I love you too!” Time is flying by, little one…
In all the silliness, I know there was great truth behind what you were saying. You made the word “love” make sense in your own special way, in an endearingly sweet way that only a three year old can. Trust me, if your Daddy ever told me he loved me “so beer,” I would not be sharing the same sentiment about it. 🙂
“I love you so (insert favorite thing here)!” has become a sort of common expression in our house these days. If we have pizza for dinner, you can bet someone will say “I really love pizza. Rachel, I love you so pizza!” or if we are watching Frozen (for the 40,000th time) that day, it’s “I love you so Frozen!”
Our first secret code. How exciting and terribly sweet that it relates to love and spreading happiness to those around us.
After all, I love you so Rachel and Jake!